dear the girl who is in all myslef selfies,
i really wanted us to work, and fulfil all of those fantasies we'd planed, get through high school together, with many late night study sessions and sleepovers, go to uni together, share a room and paint it as yellow as the sun and plaster it with pictures of us, so every night before wed go to sleep we could remember how great our friendship is. then we would graduate together and party (a lot) take a year travelling creating many more memories, we would eventually go our separate ways, get married, get a job, have kids, grow old, retire and the usual life things, but we would always have each other. but, through it all you would always be a huge part of my life, the chief bridesmaid at my wedding, the first person id tell about my job, auntie to my children and my partner in growing old disgracefully. no matter how great that plan was, life isn't a fairy tale and things dont always work out the way you want them to. and it kills me, that out of all of the things that didn't go to plan, why on earth did life have to screw up this one. no matter how much i want to be with you through all the good times and even be part of a fair few, i just want you to be happy, even if i am am not part of that. please stay safe, remember

how loved you are and i hope that you have the most amazing life, even if it isnt one which fits me in it. treat everyone with kindes, especially yourself, stay your idiotic self forever.